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the binge.

OK. So I have fudge to my left, Starmix to my right, marshmallows in front and Jelly Babies behind me. In case I run out, there's a bit of birthday cake and a few packets of biscuits downstairs. In case I run out and don't want to move, there's a cold toastie and two-week-old (at least) jelly under my desk. I also have a nice cup of tea, month-old Sprite and Dr. Pepper which obviously isn't but is going to taste like it's from around the time that Dr. Pepper was invented. If I'm exaggerating then Hattie Hill and Kate Moss have about equal waist widths (ask Pooka if you want, that is NOT true). And if I'm going to purge at all, then I hate The Darkness and would never, ever, EVER post on their forum. This is my big fuck you to the world - only problem is, it's not the world I'm fucking up, it's me. Well, it would be if I hadn't fucked myself up to excess already.

Why did people get all (well, some) of this crap for my birthday? Can't they see that I DON'T WANT IT? I'm just gonna eat and eat and eat and feel bad about myself. If it weren't for having all of this to binge on I would be done with food obsession. I'd eat two meals a day (along with the 20 cups of tea but that can't be helped) like a normal person. I've never really binged without purging since before the food obsession, and back then I didn't even know that eating three packets of biscuits on the trot was called a binge.

Just yesterday I was saying that there was nothing wrong with me (apart from caffeine, nicotine, internet, shopping and love addiction, but none of that is THAT bad, right?), and today I find out that there is.


- b.k. x


( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
Oct. 10th, 2004 05:39 am (UTC)
That's not very appreciative. I suppose you'd bitch if all they got you was a "Happy Birthday"?
Oct. 10th, 2004 05:50 am (UTC)
sorry, but ....
I'd much rather have a "Happy Birthday" (and the other stuff they got me which was very nice, and I'm very thankful for) than be surrounded by binge food. It bad for me.

b.k. x
Oct. 10th, 2004 06:08 am (UTC)
Re: sorry, but ....
That's not really their fault, and binge if you want - just don't purge. Sweets are fun - let loose every now and then. It's good for you. Eat tonnes of sweets, don't worry about it, and go back to healthy food as normal. You'll feel happy and you'll be healthier for it.
Oct. 10th, 2004 08:32 am (UTC)
Re: sorry, but ....
Yeah, this person makes sense.

And Becke, you know full well you don't have to binge. Leave the food in the cupboard downstairs and let it last.
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