June 2nd, 2003

The Party Scene

tomorrow's appointment ....

I'm scared. I dunno what's gonna happen. :\ Possible scenarios ....

boredom : "Tell us everything about you, don't miss anything out." *snore*
friendly approach : "You know I'm your friend and I want to help you." *sigh*
pointlessness : "We've come to the conclusion that you have an eating disorder." *duh*
the usual : "Here's some medication, that'll make you better." *no it won't*
annoyance : "We'll see you every weekend." *no more visiting my love*
insult : "You're just not thin enough for treatment." *trigger happy*
freaky : "We'll cut your fingers off so you don't purge any more." *I'm paranoid*
and the worst of all : "You'll have to go inpatient and have a hyperalimentation." *ARG*

What is wrong with me? It'll be fine. Just another doctor's appointment. I've had loads of them. I've talked about this stuff before - to Counsellor Jenny, to Emma CS, so it shouldn't be too hard to say. And if all else fails, I could go for the Kessa approach and sit in a corner saying nothing whatsoever, then skip any other appointments I get.

I'll just take it as it comes - meh.

m.a. x
  • Current Music
    James - Vervaceous
The Party Scene

damn, more buggerin' problems

I've started worrying about other people now - this song makes me think so much of Emma CS, and the girl dies in it .... I wonder if she's alright? Has Tom CS got over his bug yet? Is Lee still puking his guts up? Is Chris gaining any weight? Is Shaun feeling any better about himself? And what about Tim - are he and Emma back together or still split up? Is he gambling? Smoking? Cutting? Is Andrew whining his arse off? Are Alex and/or Paul leaving? Is Joe OK now? Has Hattie had plastic surgery? I wish I was at college.

I'm worrying about Kate too, partly because she's worried about me becoming Deryck II, but also because of her boyfriend situation. Dion's on the verge of leaving her. Adam's going into drug rehab. She thinks she might be pregnant. She's STILL pissed off about Cambridge and Wolverhampton universities turning her down. For Chris's sake.

But most of all, I'm worried about Pooka. He's ill, paranoid and missing me like hell. I want to be with him so much. I feel like being with him would make everything better. EVERYTHING. He'd be there to hold my hand through all my worries. I love him. :(

Damn, my mind's diseased. Better get in my KMC shell ....

['mia]. x
  • Current Music
    Jill Sobule - Lucy [Emma?] At The Gym