July 11th, 2004

Cute cute Biscuit

:(

Just got into a conversation with Pooka about death by smoking.

Listening to songs that remind me of Robin.

Robin will be worm-food by the age of 30, because of smoking.

Believe it or not, I'm still sore about the break-up ....

.... this is all too much ....

.... why can't I just get over things!? :'(

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Busted - Sleeping With The Light On
Cute cute Biscuit

feelin' slaggish again.

Becke and Pooka : 8/9/2002 - 10/12/2003.
Becke and Robin : 27/11/2003 - 14/1/2004.

Two weeks' worth of crossover! How bad is that? I'm the worst person ever.

I really should stop this. Long time ago. Very long time ago. Keep thinking that, Bik.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Gabrielle - Out Of Reach
The Party Scene

27/11 - who doesn't love it?

Me, that's who. It's my dirty horrible cheating day.

27th November 2002 : [REMOVED 12/7/2004 - b.k. x]

27th November 2003 : started going out with Robin.

Both times I was still engaged to Pooka.

Why was I such a fucking BITCH? I owe so much to Pooka, and there's nothing I can do to repay him for everything good he's done for me and everything bad I've done for him. This is probably why I don't have anyone right now. Boyfriends are like credit cards. You apply for one you really want, and even though you don't tell them, they know your entire credit history, whether it's the compulsive shopping that put you into thousands of pounds of debt or the compulsive cheating and mistreating that put you into thousands of piles of shit. And whether it's the card or the boyfriend, you'll get refused.

Since 27th November 2002, I've had "LOW CREDIT RATING" written across my forehead. One year later, it became "CREDIT RATING IN THE PITS OF HELL". And no matter how long I grow my mullet, it'll always be there.

"I'm scared of cracking up again, I just want it to be like it was before ...."

If only there was an Ocean Finance for love.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Busted - 3am
The Party Scene

hehehe

Some Fromie I've talked to a few times online asked me to meet him for sex. :P

I would never do it (not gonna meet him for anything now), but it's a compliment that he liked my pics so much.

Or maybe that's what all Fromies do, shag random people when they've got partners.

I would make such a great Fromie .... fuck, that's bad.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Busted - Who's David?