August 10th, 2004

The Party Scene

lausie etc.

Just been talking to lausie_ and she's actually a lot nicer than I first thought. The thought of people who have perfect lives and don't have a care in the world physically sicken me, but she's alright really. She gave a few strange suggestions ("I think Pooka should kill himself") and doesn't know much about true love ("Does it have to be him?"), but she's good to talk to. It was a coincidence - I was just about to comment on her LJ and then she started talking to me. Weird. But anyway, she's pretty cool. :)

Hmm, maybe I should move to South Africa. The two people I know who live there are very, very happy. Lausie, obviously, and Lee, who was one of my best ever mates at Farleigh. He never much liked Britain (well, I wouldn't either if I lived in crappy Kidderminster or was doing Skillpower at college), and he's ecstatically happy to be back in the country he was born in. Is everyone in South Africa happy? They're probably happier than me.

In fact, changed my mind - too hot there. If I can't stand the heat in Spain, I'd hate it in Africa. Maybe I'll bugger off to Ireland instead - naw, too close. New Zealand maybe, that sounds good. Hey, maybe if after I finish in Radstock, going to a different country for a few years might sort me out a bit! Then I can come back to lovely Somerset, fresh with new experiences and new happiness. It worked for Becky in "Shopaholic Abroad" by Sophie Kinsella, it worked for Lyssa in "With Or Without You" by Carole Matthews - OK, those are works of fiction, but the authors did the same thing and they said in the thankyous that they liked it. Yes, I have a cunning plan! Haven't had one of those in a while. Should have them more often.

Anyway, before I go to South Africa, Ireland, New Zealand or even Radstock, I have a life in Aldridge to sort out.

But the thing is - how do I do that!?

- b.k. x

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    Busted - Crashed The Wedding
The Party Scene


Just been talking to BJ (aka. Ben Johnston) online - he's great. Apart from voyeur182 (I've been talking to her a lot recently, she's great too) and obviously Morty and Jenn, he's been on my MSN list longer than any other person. He gives relationship advice like Stu (who comforted me about Robin by saying, "Robin's a girl's name!" - LOL). I told him about Pooka, and he suggested that he's not worth going out with because he probably secretly wears women's underwear. Haha! :P Don't really agree with that though. But I haven't seen Pooka in a very long time - hmm, maybe he's changed a bit. Haven't seen BJ in a long time either, we should meet up again (we've only met once - he was v. v. drunk at the time and I didn't know it was him at first).

Man, I love this song. It describes me so well. I'm glad Shaun introduced me to it.

"I don't keep my secrets there,
I hide them everywhere.
I could deny, but I'll never realise,
I'm just chasing rainbows, all the time.
I could deny, but I'll never realise,
I've been chasing rainbows, all my life."

Brilliant. As long as I'm not chasing Edward Rainbow, except maybe with a machete or something.

- b.k. x

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    Shed Seven - Chasing Rainbows
The Party Scene

coupling's bad for everyone

Chris and Hana almost broke up.

Danii and Aaron (her bloke, ex now) broke up.

I think Rikki misses Tara more than he makes out.

Cat and Dave .... well, they're fine now, but they have problems every five minutes.

Jenn's gone from "I love Stu" to "Stu's OK but I fancy this other guy", just after she got her engagement ring too. Shit runs in the family don't it? But at least I grown out of it.

Bad stuff - but at least I'm not the only one! HA!

I am such a bitch.

- b.k. x

PS. Got my electrodes off now, yay! But they use some weird stuff to get them off. My head smells like petrol.
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    The Streets - Dry Your Eyes
The Party Scene


Washed my hair. A lot. This stuff doesn't come out easy!

- b.k. x

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    Crowded House - Better Be Home Soon
Cute cute Biscuit


Fuck. I can't stop shaking.

I'm such a mess.

I like to think I'm someone else ....

.... but I'm still myself. Sad, childish, jealous Becke.

Why did I have to be ME? Why couldn't I have been someone better?

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    James - Getting Away With It (All Messed Up)
The Party Scene


Talking to Pooka about the RPG reminds me of good things - my childhood days of making puerile fantasy filmings! The best was "The Dread Of Night", the first one I ever did. It was with Jenn and Kim. We had such a laugh making it. We'd scripted it and had some of the costumes, but we never got round to filming it. Shame, cuz it was actually good. Well, it was good for three girls aged 13, 10 and 9, at least. It was about the wacky adventures of Mewtikka Katchinawit (me, with an ownage name) and Zilla Williams (Kim, with a crap name). Jenn was a supporting actress, playing some mate of theirs called Reena. Mewtikka was a supposedly normal teenager, apart from the fact that she sneaked out at night to study at the prestigious Morexville Magic Academy, where she learnt vampire slaying (Kim's idea, she was kinda Buffy obsessed at the time). Zilla was a radio DJ, fairly average person until she put on her fake nails (that is so Kim) and became evil vampire Drusilla (more Buffy references). As for Reena, she was, erm, not much. Then we had the supporting characters - Jenn as Drewsellia, who was nothing to do with Reena, but was Drusilla's even more evil mate who was the most bloodthirsty thing, like, ever. I played three more - Rosalia (the only non-evil vampire in the film), Bikini (witchy person who, erm, wears a bikini) and Kendra (who occasionally turned up to die, an obvious South Park spoof, and was scrapped because she was only there to take the piss out of Morty's online girlfriend's name anyway).

OK, so it was Buffy gone wrong, Reena said "Oh God, Zilla!" so many times that it simply lost its funniness (if it was ever funny in the first place), Aldridge isn't the best place to represent a secret vampire-filled town and the fake nails idea was just plain stupid, but it was lots of fun and I would love to do something like that again. Of course, there will never be anything as mad as that, and I'll eat Chris's socks if I ever find anything like it.

Ah well, I can always reminisce ....

- b.k. x

PS. Before you ask, Pooka, this is not me begging for an RPG place, it's just me talking shite. :P
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