August 11th, 2004

The Party Scene

smoking

Ooh, it's the 11th already isn't it?

Today will be my official last day of smoking. I will have my last fag at 11:50pm.

Don't know how long this giving up will last (my last two attempts were 10 days and 1 day), but I can try.

And I've learnt that I can stick to things (like, for example, this bloody glue in my hair).

Go for it, babe! :)

- b.k. x

  • Current Mood
    determined determined
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meh

Internet upstairs not working - now downstairs instead.

Annoying. Can't listen to music this way.

Still feeling shaky and scared - had a partial seizure this morning because of this.

I don't even have a reason to feel shaky and scared.

And as if my problems weren't enough, this keyboard makes me feel so dyslexic.

- b.k. x

PS. Time is incorrect on this (do you seriously think I'd be up at 5:55am!?).
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    scared scared
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and i thought my laptop was bad! (back on it now, btw)

Reasons why my laptop is better than the family computer ....

1. It knows what time it is.
2. It doesn't have an ancient, stupid version of MSN.
3. It works on the network in Windows.
4. The keyboard doesn't think we're in Spain.

Effects of Unbalanced Grass CD on computers ....

Mine : skips a lot, but copies to WMA alright.
Family one : crashes entire computer.

So, I'm warning you - Unbalanced Grass is evil and a murderer of crap computers! Whoever the band members are should be prostituted .... erm, prosecuted. :P

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Unbalanced Grass
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my mum has a cunning plan ....

She was displeased with Farleigh, so she's going to start her own AS school!

She's already got Priory funding, and is going to look at houses tomorrow.

I have the coolest and most random family ever.

- b.k. x

  • Current Mood
    blah blah
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changes

Why have I changed so much?

Why can't I be myself any more?

Why do I always complain about myself on here?

Why am I discussing animal noises with cool_is_dead?

Why does a moose say "lol"?

Why am I listening to Spice Girls?

Why do I have no life?

Why the fuck am I posting this anyway?

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Spice Girls - 2 Become 1
The Party Scene

best way to give up smoking

Smoke menthols. Not only do they contain half the amount of nicotine as normal fags, but they also taste like a mixture of antiseptic and horrible cough sweets.

It's working for me, anyway. I'm getting less and less cravings all the time! :)

- b.k. x

  • Current Mood
    determined determined
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mmm, beer

Laptop. Beer. Gotta be careful not to pull a Morty .... :P

Wow, one hour till I smoke my last. I've saved a "Dan fag" (a good 'un that Dan gave me when he came back from his holiday to .... well, I can't remember where, but that isn't the point) for my final, cuz they're v. nice and not as high in nicotine as my usual Richmond King Size either. Dan's OK sometimes, but can get quite annoying. One of those people, like Kim, who's best in small doses.

Beer is nice and helps me sleep, so I won't lay awake all night thinking about fags. I got an early appointment tomorrow, and it's quite important that I be there. I've had too many early appointments lately - when was the last time I had a proper long sleep that wasn't during the day!? Bloody doctors, nurses, psychiatrists, epilepsy specialists, social workers, contraceptive administrators (I want that to be my job title, it'd be so cool!), etc.

Wow, I actually feel good. My mood swings more than .... a swing. An overactive swing.

Anyway, enough updating. I'll update more soon, probably, knowing boring ol' me!

- b.k. x

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    good good