September 8th, 2004

The Party Scene

"i'll never fall in love again, it's all over now"

Two years ago today, I asked Pooka out and he said yes.

If I was a nice person who was slightly sane, I'd be celebrating.

But no - I'm just sitting in my room, hating the world and abusively phoning Robin.

I hope that isn't illegal. :\

I want love .... I want Pooka. I need Pooka. :'(

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Portishead - Biscuit
The Party Scene

meh

I know I posted this song before, but it's brill and I'm listening to it obsessively.

Portishead - Biscuit.

I'm lost, exposed,
Stranger things will come your way,
It's just I'm scared,
Got hurt a long time ago,
Can't make myself heard,
No matter how hard I scream.

Oh sensation,
Sin, slave of sensation.

Fully fed yet I still hunger,
Torn inside,
Haunted I tell myself yet I still wander,
Down, inside,
It's tearing me apart.

Oh sensation,
Sin, slave of sensation.

I'll never fall in love again,
It's all over now.

At last, relief,
A mother's son has left me sheer,
The shores I seek,
Are crimson tastes divine,
Can't make myself heard,
No matter how hard I scream.

Oh sensation,
Sin, slave of sensation.

I'll never fall in love again,
It's all over now.


I relate to that. So much. Anyway, apart from that, at least I'm popular on MSN the moment. I've got pookatimes talking to me but unfortunately not loving me, then there's bristolian_kam, satanicmantis, Hana and someone called Nodixal whom I barely know all being caring. I'm glad I know so many nice people.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Portishead - Biscuit (many a time)
The Party Scene

deranged but happy

I'm happier than I thought I would be - wearing this catsuit cheers me up. :)

I'm constantly going on about wallpapering the house with posters of The Darkness.

I also gave my derangement ring to my cat Jazz, then to morti.

My grandma, Bebe, is being v. nice and making me tea.

I am kinda deranged, am I not!?

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    The Darkness - I Believe In A Thing Called Love
The Party Scene

mullet porn, mullet pubes! (no reason, hana said it)

"I'm holding my own, give or take a tear or two, yeh,
I'm holding my own, no matter what I put myself through."


Would be a sweet song if the subliminal message wasn't, "leave me alone bitch, don't want to get laid right now, all I want is a reeeeeally good wank". Ahem, anyway.

Still surprisingly happy. Morty pissed me off a bit earlier (he doesn't understand cutting, like, at all - you can do it in the day as well as night, pretty much all of mine were daytime ones, my only wrist-slit was at about 2pm - meh, that's that). If you happen to be sleeping softly and it's not something you do very often, you wouldn't be too happy if someone, especially someone rather on the large side, sat on your bed and moaned at you about something. No offence Morty, I know you're just trying to help, but I'd rather sleep when I'm able to.

Ouch, my mouth hurts. :\

Have I got any other stuff to say? Not really. I've got one light that works and two that don't. I've got a cuddly cow named Grazer in my lap, and it's quite a nice cow, it's a very good friend of mine. There's a tissue box on my desk which is pink and has tissues in it. My tits are falling out of this catsuit (admit it, that turns you on almost as much as my tissue box). I'm biting my nails and they taste of something strange - don't wanna know ....

I need a cup of tea - and a biscuit - and a fag - and some paracetamol. MY FUCKING MOUTH IS KILLING ME!!! Bloody epilepsy, bloody subconscious self-harm. Hey, I'm gonna write a song about that.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    The Darkness - many a song about wanking (they all are)