how could she?
OK, there was this MSN conversation that Lisa set up. Her, Ben, Tori, Paula, Adam and me. She set it up so that Ben and I could talk to each other, and all was going well until Tori was being all dirty and lovey around Ben. Then Paula said that she thought that Tori loved Ben (don't know whether that was to make me feel bad or just a random comment) and he didn't object. Now I can understand Paula trying to annoy me cuz she doesn't like me. But Tori's meant to be my friend. I shouldn't really blame her because she might not have known what the point of the conversation was, but she does know that I like Ben.
Maybe I'm just being silly .... it could just be .... oh, fuck knows. :(
Well, it was a good dream while it lasted. Now how about a song?
Someday (by Bikki)
I see white smoke
On black sky
The stars have gone to sleep tonight
But the moon is full and high
In this darkness
I'm alone
I wonder if there's anyone
Who knows I'm on my own
And your face comes into my mind
Do you know what a pathetic girl
You have left behind
Maybe someday you will walk my way
And I'll lift my head and smile at you
But you'll walk away no matter what I do
Someday you'll think of what I say
And you'll wonder if the way I feel
For you could be a love that's real
But my doubts are bigger than my dreams
And someday is far away it seems
They say this is
Just a phase
So why am I stuck in my room
I haven't dressed for days
I hear laughing
I'm your joke
You're getting everything you want
But all I have's my smoke
And your face though pretty it may be
You don't know just what disturbances
It has brought to me
Maybe someday you will walk my way
And I'll lift my head and smile at you
But you'll walk away no matter what I do
Someday you'll think of what I say
And you'll wonder if the way I feel
For you could be a love that's real
But my doubts are bigger than my dreams
And someday is far away it seems
That's exactly how I feel. That and like smashing my head through a window.
- b.k. x