November 4th, 2004

The Party Scene

my darkling epitaph ....

R.I.P. Queen Kinsella (aka. Bikki)
23rd September 2004 - 3rd November 2004
"You either loved her or you hated her.
You're unlikely to forget her.
But she'll be back - 100% FACT!"

(by the way, for those who don't know what a "100% FACT" is, it means that it's 75% likely to be 100% FACT and 25% likely to be bollocks, so there's a 75% chance that I'll be back)

So I left TDR, I did. The same way that our dear DJ Morty finished off Radio PTMY - a simple "Goodnight." and a close of the window. I'm not sure whether my subliminal post subjects, disabled emoticons, hot cups of tea, German bondage suits, taking things too seriously, hunting Dan, stalking Morrish or any other Bikki trademarks I had will be missed, but meh. Ben suggested that I come back occasionally to read his posts, Michelle said that the tea won't be the same without me and Tori said that she feels responsible for this. Tori, and anyone else who might possibly feel that way, IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.

As Busted said .... "No-one's to blame, here's where it all ends."

I'm glad I left on a high note, or at least I think I did. Anyone who wishes to do so, keep in contact. I'll miss ya. :(

Only problem is - how do I spend my days now!? Damn me! :\

- b.k. x

PS. Is a "ciao for now" like a "see you later"?

PPS. And if it is, does it mean, "see you later" or "see you LATER"?

Cor, been reading too much Georgia Nicolson!
  • Current Music
    Busted - Sleeping With The Light On
The Party Scene

november remembrance ....

Pooka, or anyone else who is easily hurt by this sort of thing (including myself - I'm in tears now too), don't say I didn't warn you. I take no responsibility for anyone's hurt.

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All I can say uncut is -
Two Darkness tickets for sale.
12th December 2004 (one year, two days on from when we broke up - still can't count).
London Wembley Arena.
Price negotiable.
Who wants?

- b.m. x [the bikki maydon who might have been]

  • Current Music
    Lene Marlin - One Year Ago (how appropriate)
The Party Scene

what brought this on?

Ben Morrish.
Add prettier face and longer hair.
Minus six years of age.
Change music taste.
Add depression.
Change name very slightly.
= Pooka.

Maybe that was it - how come I pick people ALMOST THE SAME!?

Maybe leaving TDR has upset me more than I thought it would.

Maybe it's the date - two years, two days on.

Maybe it's the month - SAD starts here.

I think that the latest morti post was the final straw.

But there were so many other straws, all adding up together.

EDIT : To add to it all, I can't count.

- b.k. x

  • Current Music
    Busted - Crashed The Wedding (true love lasts forever ....)
The Party Scene

sorry to keep posting and clogging up friends pages.

The Luckiest Girl In The World.
You say that every girl is brimming with love
And happiness, sweetness and giving,
But if you think this you have no idea of
The pitch-black darkness that I live in.
You look at me and say, "What a lovely girl,
I'd kill for her family bliss."
For I am the luckiest girl in the world.
My scars do not come into this.

- Bikki, 30/8/2004, 11:19pm

- b.k. x

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