February 19th, 2005

The Party Scene

pth.

Can't stop reading my faery/kitten-story - how pathetic. Especially as the idea for it came from Neighbours. Bloody daytime soaps. :\

Why can't I be addicted to the one about Sophie and Ginger? Or at least my songs ....

.... this story is so depressing. :(

- b.k. x

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The Party Scene

don't know why i'm updating so much.

Do you ever feel like you're being watched? I do. Right now. As if there's someone out there, at this very moment, watching every fucked-up thing I do and reporting back somewhere, where this someone and their friends laugh at me. I know this can't be true, but it feels like it is. The thoughts of this, the thoughts of two days' time, the thoughts of what Jenn said, the thoughts of my dreams - all following me, haunting me. And there's no way out. The only two things that could calm me, make things better, are long gone, and I can never get them back. Life has, once again, messed me around.

- b.k. x

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